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U, I loved you so
deeply before. When you told me you had a disease, it was already too late for me to feel
regretful because I was in love with you. I was totally blind. As I believe that there
will be a miracle, so I didn't give up. At that time I thought no matter what would happen
and I wouldn't leave you anyway. Even if it became serious, I would take good care of you
and stay with you. However, it made me so upset that you broke up with me at last. I am
always asking why.
I was ever so angry with you because you hurt me deeply. It spent me quite a long
time recovering. In that dark days I cried so much and would be suddenly full of tears. I
had been so sad. Do you ever know?
Now it is all gone, I don't want to be angry with you any more. Anyway, we still
had happy time before. I will keep it on my mind even if finally our love ended sadly.
Today why do you feel regretful? You shouldn't disturb my life any more. When the
date you broke up with me, actually I knew one day you would be sorry to it. I knew it but
I didn't say to you. It is hard to find such a girl like me, I am unique.
It is too late. Something you should do but you haven't done, something you
shouldn't do but you did. I am unable to treat you as well as in the past because you are
not worth and I am afraid to be hurt by you again. I want to drive you away. You didn't
keep your promise.
You can't see this because if you are smart, you won't lose me. |
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M, I think I nearly
loved you. You left me a very good impression when we met at the first time, unfortunately
later I felt bored to be with you. Until the day I was drunk, you sent me home and took
care of me. Although I was drunk and had silly behavior and made troubles, but in fact I
knew you looked after me and I was so moved. I really liked you since that night.
However, you were so busy and my emotions lost. Even you weren't someone who
traveled Yunnan with me. Just before I left, then your behaviors brought me a dilemma. I
liked you again since you ate up my left food without hesitation. When we walked, you were
about to say something to me. I knew what you were going to say, I was at a loss what to
do and I didn't let you say. Once you said it, I thought I was unable to leave.
When I was in my trip, sometimes I would think of you. I called you although I had
nothing special to say to you. It seemed it was better that we were separated.
Finally you asked me whether you had to pick me up in the airport when I was back.
I said no because you had to work next day and my plane set off so late, although in my
heart I wish you could do so. My plane was delayed and I had to set off very late. I am a
romantic person and I was afraid you are, too. I was afraid you would give me a surprise.
I worried you really would wait for me in the airport and didn't know the exact time. I
called you again to tell you my plane would be delayed. We chatted for so long time in the
airport until my card used up.
The planet met the storm and serious lightning. At that time I thought if there
would be an accident, I couldn't come back, and probably you were waiting for me. I was
sad, at least at that time I missed you. You were the last one who I called in the world
if I really met the plane accident.
Now I am back safe and sound but I don't have the same feeling to you. Maybe
sometimes I mind your carelessness, especially you spend most your time in working and
can't give me more time. Otherwise we may already be happy together. I was a little sad to
end it, but I have to say that I am unable to go to the Silk Road with you. |
